Within Our Circle with Filmmakers!

People usually watch ugliness and beauty from behind the screen. But few people can touch ugliness and beauty and can understand what proportion of reality there is; all of the truth, part of it or even false! 
What we're talk about in our private circles, that`s not is written in yellow press.
Disgusting behavior of novices who are satisfied to provide some part of producing movies budgets in order to act in that movie is what we sometimes take silence about that or sometimes talk about that. Maybe an agent told them that they have seen in more in this way, or perhaps it claimed that some famous actors do the same or have done so before and mention some actors; newcomers believe. Sometimes even they are satisfied to produce Internet stations or cultural and entertainment websites by their own budget in order to be published an interview from themselves, so they arrange an interview for free.  
The news of this kind of scandal is more important than other kinds in our private circles.

Destructive Minority

Economical and cultural criterion and standards cause some minority groups to avoid entering social competitions automatically. These groups are divided into two: (1) Groups which don't join social competitions because of free choice e.g. cultural and conscience minorities which cannot participate in this cultural competitions because of not accepting pop culture. (2) Groups which lose their chance to join because of not having necessary abilities in being matched with social and cultural standards, while they believe in pop culture of society. Such as those who tend to have educational degrees but won't have it because of current economic conditions and can't enter social competitions. Accepting this fact will be difficult for second minority group when the state gives the same facilities to foreign and non-local members who can match with this economic and cultural system. So this minority will feel out by the society. This will make them follow their benefits non-legally, some ways which are definitely non-legal and perhaps in conflict with public ethics. No doubt that we can't expect this minority to be the same as others. Because they don't have an equal opportunity with others to join social competitions and have a positive impact on society. Or they have paid more than others to have such an opportunity. But it does not mean to accept them as destructive and anti-social minority. So it is necessary to have a little society in the heart of a big one for this minority same as small societies made for non-local or religious minorities such as Chinese people. So this minority will follow the rules of that small society in which it is a member. And also there is no need for it to break the rules and public ethics for its own benefit.

Los Angles and New York report

Nothing has changed in Los Angles since the last time I have been in there. Only people have become a little impatient but the same method is taking place over and over. Los Angles weather is naturally good unlike New York’s sunny along with cold weather. But now everywhere is cold. Although Los Angles has various cultures, its culture doesn't let you experience them all yet in New York you can experience different cultures and even live them for a period of time. This is free like eating different foods. Yet, culture of Los Angles is a simple one for the people who are seeking a comfortable life. But what does simple mean?
It means that there is no special social and cultural pressure to accept different roles and tasks. Your friends don't do special jobs in Los Angeles. They eat, wake up and sleep late, and enjoy their lives. This may be big part of their lives. But your friends might have various types of tasks to do in their weekly and daily schedule in New York. When most of your friends and those with whom you communicate, follow such a behavioral method you will be forced to do the same. In fact a kind of social and cultural pressure in New York makes you have such a schedule in your life. But New York’s society is less influenced by media's pressure because of its cultural variation. So we can claim that liberty culture governs in this city. Cultural pressure which is caused by competition and has turned into a non-separable cultural part in Los Angles has a non-significant place in New York. With all these facts, there is no cultural relation between New York City and its citizens. Even those who have been born and grown in this city have not passion for this city. We cannot say that this characteristic is not in New York as this city is a multinational city, because LA has the same property.
The last thing about LA is that the emotional reactions of LA’s people are strictly affected by tradition. It should be note that traditionalism is not restricted to a set of beliefs and life styles. The reason and also the quality of emotional reactions to events can be included in tradition e.g. emotional reaction to divorce, children and family incompatibility, a break up between a boy and a girl. A New York citizen needs less time to match himself to the condition. He can come over problems easily. But a citizen of LA usually needs much more time to accept some facts and handle them. This is because LA culture wants you to seek a comfortable life experience. But New York culture tells you that if everything is good, it is excellent; if not,it is normal!

The Man Who Named Father

I remember that the relationship between me and my father was the same as US and former Soviet. I thought that my life would be better without him. Sometimes our dreams come true but the things we expect go wrong. It was a spring afternoon and it was still a little cold. I think I was about 16 at that time. I was noticed that my father is called but he does not answer. Well it shouldn't have been that much important. I called him. It left unanswered. First I started to laugh, for the first 15 minute losing my father was such unbelievable for me that I took it as a joke. A huge emotional reaction happens just when you expect something otherwise you might react in a shallow way. But after a few minutes I could feel scared more than any other feeling, scared of losing my father. I wasn't sad at that moment. I couldn't cry. I understood then the people only just can cry in secure moments. If one of our friends talks in a childish way to his father, I'll tell you he's treating like a child. But I'll praise him from inside. The last memory I have with my father is like an treasure. I went to park with my father in childhood, it was about to be a ceremony there. I wanted him to wait for the ceremony. He rejected and told me: “you don't have to accept it at the moment. But you have some minutes to get on with yourself.”

Common Sense

I can feel that she's mad at me but trying to pretend she's calm. Her anger is vain for me; without any benefit so I don't look her in the eye because I don't want her to suffer of pretending anymore. The only thing that I learnt from her is that sometime people will show they're weak or even sacrifice themselves to attract others. She said that she has been bullied several times in high school time, such as Lady Gaga. I can understand that it was only a show. The only thing she has is that she's depressed. I think that maybe Virginia Wolf's claim to be sexual abuse in her childhood or Marilyn Monroe's stated childhood tragedy in the book autobiography “My Story” which reminds me of Jane Eyre story of Charlotte Brontë, the popular writer, will be all lies. They both seem to be suffered from depression. After a long silent she starts talking and I know that she wants to start a new story after an older one like many others. She wants to be a hero in this story if she wasn't in other stories even if she's the only writer and reader of it. She asks: “Do you remember you told me that you know a dictionary of my smiles?” 
It was better if she has never asked me such a question. I know that she'll get angry because of this question. What ever my answer is, it is not friendly. She gets obviously disappointed. She asks: “Such a serious, Why?”
I prefer a friendly answer for sure and maybe one of my reasons to leave her was because I didn't want to talk in a way that I dislike. Less than an hour later I find myself in a cab to airport. It is night and I don't even say a word to the driver. Leaving this city to me is leaving a life.