Lucy's Room (Chapter 13)

I sleep with my bald and old Hollywood and wake up with my dreamy Hollywood. The voice I've never heard from myself now flashes back in my mind. When he said frequently "Rise your breathe Lucy, rise, rise" 
It was only my moan that took over the room. All of my body, voice and even breath could find a new meaning under the orgasm theme. It was me, the girl whom I never knew her. I'm one who enjoy of her existence, when there's no limit to joy but joy.

Lucy's Room (Chapter 11)

Ten days have passed since new life and new room. I find Eric a reasonable man. Amazingly he always has answer to everything. Once I asked him about romance scene at movies. I was wondering how it could be possible for a married woman to kiss another man at a movie. In my mind it can break a relationship at any stage.
- Make no sense is our motto. We're not representative of low culture, Lucy!
- Is it possible?
- It's a rule Lucy, It's a rule. We all condemn cheaters. So, an actor has to separate his sense from his body and act.
- It doesn't matter what label you put on this. Kissing is kissing!
- So, if an actor shows you anger through his rule, does it mean he is really angry?! There's a border between performing and acting. A movie star is not a porn star to perform at any unrated scenes.
- You know Eric that I don't have any problem with such things. But I'm really worried about people opinion about me.
- People are the best judge. They know difference. It's the reason that they live with celebrities but they may only enjoy of pornography.
- How sure are you about this?
- You listen to music, watch movies and maybe enjoy of pornography…
- Oh, what a heck Eric!
- Like others. Exactly! But what do you want to be? A porn star?!
- I knew you're the one who I can trust him.
- Clear as mud Lucy?! 
- No, I got it.

Lucy's Room (Chapter 10)

The man whom I met was about sixty years old. Somehow I picture the 70's when I saw him even though I didn't live then. I was introduced to him by a friend.
- You must be Lucy, Lucy Cannon, right? 
- Hello, Mr. Cutler. Yea, I'm Lucy Cannon. 
- Call me Eric.
- Eric! OK. 
- So, you said, you want to be a star?
- In fact you told me that Eric.
- I'm sorry but I don't want to be a star. I'm a manager
- Hehe… I know you are. But you told me that I can be a star.
- Well, every pretty girl can be a star.
- But it's different about me. Not?
- If you want to be star, you need a god but not one of those who forgive your sins.
- Let me tell you a truth Eric, I really want it all and I believe if I want something I do everything for it. But, I really don't know how. - I would arrange interviews with media and make proper introduction to film makers and publishers.
- So…
- So, I have a personal studio in my house. I can take some picture from you.

I was suspicious to him, but I didn't want to lose my chance. Taking risk is part of life and sometimes there's no time to be sure.

- Where should we go now, Eric?
- Not so far Lucy. He took some shot from me and then he asked: "How old are you Lucy?"
- sixteen
- That's so nice. But it's better not to go any future.
It's true I had self exploration on Internet. But I was there undetected. It made me to believe he's a trustable person. So, when he asked me to stay at his house despite the fact that I'm not an outdoor girl, I accept his invitation. With the exception of living in a new room there was nothing else there for me. But Eric was the same person who I needed to count on his help. So, I don't know if I should have told him a no.